I Wasn’t A Person
I wasn’t a person,
I was a fear made flesh to conquer and crucify.
I wasn’t a person,
I was a scapegoat to blame.
I wasn’t a person,
I was a trophy to collect,
A step up to step on,
A toy to play with,
A thing to use.
I wasn’t a person,
I was an inconvenience,
An irrelevance,
A total insignificance.
I wasn’t a person,
I was a shadow of a self,
A shattered soul.
I wasn’t a person,
I was a problem for professionals to deal with,
A suspect specimen to box and label,
A pathology in human form,
A profit-making patient to perennially pop those poisonous pills,
An object of patronising pity to puff up insecure egos.
I wasn’t a person to them.
But whose humanity does dehumanising deaden?
Sorry about the comment abruptly ending my stylus slipped and posted it before I could finish. I am not and never will be a victim, I will always be a SURVIVOR. However what they did and continue to knowingly allow is actually killing me. Everything that has been deliberately and cruelfully inflicted on me. Violates human rights, my patient rights do not exist, it violates their own standards and safety policies, yet I sit everyday in my home knowing the system up here is rigged, illegal and will target a patient on no evidence whatsoever because the patient has ZERO to hide and they have EVERYTHING to hide. I so wanted to get this in front of a Judge to prevent any other patient being subjected to this level of Sadistic Narcissism upon innocent vulnerable patients enabled by the very institutions that say they are transparent and always hold themselves and NHS Employees FULLY ACCOUNTABLE. They most definitely are not are not and do not. Up here to the mental health sector and adult Social work sector you’re life is EXPENDABLE. You will be targeted, pariahed and have medication with held, urgent procedures not carried out,in everyway and anyway, no medical monitoring, they can take the life you have spent entirely surviving and put an end to it SOLELY TO STOP THE SICKENING TRUTH AND REALITY OF WHAT THEY HAVE KNOWN ABOUT AND NOT HELD THE INDIVIDUALS ACCOUNTABLE FOR, but chosen to do everything and anything to stop that patient exposing this truth concealed in their own files. I am still being subjected to this and so are other innocent patients. There is no help up here to stop this,you truly do stand alone against one the most corrupt institutions. It is truly the stuff of nightmares, except this isn’t a nightmare you get to awaken from. It is a daily enabled evil reality solely to stop what they know is inhumane, illegal and sickeningly done to indulge their belief of being omnipotent and accountable to no one, not even the justice system. That is why when these cases on the rare occasions get into court, you never see the targeted patient walk out of that court still alive. This is a truly sick institution and it’s health board up here. Sorry for talking for so long Catherine, it’s just you’re poem truly and deeply resonated for me. 😊 Thank you again for capturing the rawness and reality in sharing” I Wasn’t A Person”.
Dear Catherine, thank you so much for sharing your, “I Wasn’t A Person Poem”. It is the most relatable poem I have EVER read. I am a PSYCHIATRIC ABUSE SURVIVOR, but I do not know for how much longer. The premeditated wilful enabled misconduct is absolutely horrifying and the lengths to which the NHS AND HEALTH BOARD have gone to is truly sinister. Solely to conceal the evidence that I have in multiple files. I have pursued every avenue I can and